How I let my past ruin my present moment.


Lately I have begun to notice how I worry about things in the future that all derives from my past experiences. Of course they do – how could I predict the future? All I have is the moment of Now and my past memories. But it actually helps me to react to my worries and ask myself what experiences and memories these feelings of fear or unease come from.

Then I can also ask myself if I am absolutely sure that this exact same thing will happen in the future. If I believe so (which is very seldom) – what can I do to prevent it? It helps me to focus on actions which I can control instead of feelings that I can’t change. If I don’t think it’s absolutely sure that it will happen, I try to convince myself that the worries will only make me loose the joy of the moment, my mindfulness, and peace of mind for something that has already happened.

Is the thing I am anxious about happening right in this moment? No! So the fear is all about something that does not exist, something that is not happening. Either it’s a past memory or an imagination of the future, based on the same memories. But it is not happening right now!

A while ago I tasted a fruit that I had not tasted before. “Is it good?” my daughter asked. I didn’t know. It wasn’t bad, but I couldn’t say if I enjoyed the taste or not. “What does it taste like?” she continued. I didn’t know that either. It tasted like nothing I had eaten before.

I could really imagine how my brain was working at high speed to try to find something somewhere in my brain that could make sense of the taste in my mouth! And even if my answer to my daughter was: “Maybe it tastes a bit like banana mixed with something” it was not the true explanation of the sensation of the moment. So I had to stop searching and instead concentrate on the present – to enjoy the happiness of tasting something completely new!

Our daily lives are like tasting new fruit every day, but since we mostly think the same thoughts today as we did yesterday, we miss the moment and keep ourselves stuck in old memories. We keep ourselves busy all days trying to imagine all the dangers and troubles that might meet us tomorrow or next month. Of course we have to plan our days and use our experiences when needed, but then let go and enjoy the Now, the thrill of not knowing what tomorrow will bring!




To listen beyond words


Research shows us that we in general can talk 125 to 140 words per minute. But we have the capacity to listen 5-10 times faster! So what do you do when your friend tells you about her problems? You think! You have plenty of time to think about a similar problem that you once had yourself, or how you can best give her some advice based on your experiences, or you might even start to think about that trip you booked yesterday.

Most people have continuous “inner monologues” going on when someone else is talking. We might gather new arguments in a heated discussion or, if we feel some kind of criticism from the other person, we might search for evidence to defend ourselves as soon as there’s a gap in the conversation. This way of listening is not good if you really want to help your friend. To listen in a helpful way, you have to let go of that monologue and focus on the other person. You have to allow your empathy to come through. That is actually the most important. If she sees and feels that you are truly listening to her, it might be the best help you can offer. Good advice and associated stories that you have created instead of listening aren’t at all as useful as silent, empathetically listening.

There is actually one more level of advanced listening. If you feel that you really want to say something to help anyhow, not based on your own feelings and thoughts, but on your friend’s emotions right now, you should try to listen “globally”.

When you listen globally you are still totally focused on your friend, but you add the rest of the senses. How does she look? What about her body language? In what tone is she telling you about her problems? You should not start your inner monologue again, but you should try to hear what your intuition is telling you. Do you have the feeling that there is something she is NOT telling you? Does she sound frightened even if she doesn’t say so?

Trust your intuition and ask her about it. “I get the feeling that you are afraid of something. Is that correct?”. “You tell me that you don’t care about that anymore, but to me you look quite angry. Are you angry about something in particular?” That might bring her thoughts to a deeper level and help her find her own answers on how to solve her problem.

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