My Wish for Trust was Fulfilled in an Unexpected Way.


I have a belief that we can create and influence our future by the way we choose to focus our thoughts and enhance our feelings today. I don’t know how it works though! If it’s my brain finding new connections and solution, God, Angels, guardians, the Universe, the law of attraction, my soul or something else. And I try not to care, as long as I see that it works. And I can see that over and over again. Yet I don’t trust it to work!

Ironically I also believe that if I focus on what I do NOT want and my lack of things going my way, I will get more of that (which I do not want). So that’s been my biggest mental issue the last year. How can I let go of focusing on the problem and trust that the solution will come?

Last week I was on vacation and had time to sit on the beach pondering these thoughts, asking for help to trust. Just enjoying the warm sand under my feet I lazily walked down to the ocean. The waves close to the beach were high and hard this day and I felt that I should not go swimming today (particularly not wearing my new, cut sunglasses), since I’m scared of being under water. But there were a bunch of French people further out, beyond the breaking point of the waves, and they seemed to have a great time. So I quickly swam out to them and enjoyed the movement of the warm ocean for a while. Suddenly I see a huge wave coming against me and I realize I will not be able to escape it. I take a deep breath and tell myself not to panic but swim upwards and let the wave pass before I try to put my feet down again. I tumble helplessly under the wave crushing down on me, but I am proud when I come up without any panic. Then I see the next wave coming and I have to do the same thing over again. Standing up once again, I realize that my glasses of course are gone, but there is no time to look around because a third huge wave is on its way! I use my last strength to fight the strong current and manage to reach the shore.

To my surprise, and contentment, I feel mostly positive: I’m happy that I escaped the third wave, I’m not angry with myself for losing my glasses, since it’s already too late and I’m a bit fascinated to think that my inner me told me not to go into the waves!

Another 5-6 huge waves come and go and I can imagine my glasses being anywhere in the ocean by now. But I have experienced miracles before, I remind myself. So I ask two French ladies on the beach if they can tell their friends out there in the waves that I’ve lost my glasses. Just when I’m about to leave I hear a lady shouting. I look up and far out there she is, waving, with my glasses in her hand!

I just had to laugh! I could just imagine a somewhat fed up guardian angel standing by my side saying: “So now – do you trust that I’m here!?”

I do. For a while at least …

What if it might be true?

A photo by Greg Rakozy.

Sometimes I meet people with opinions that I’ve never heard before. Pretty often within the spiritual area. Some years ago I would just have thought of them with pity; how can anyone be so crazy they believe in things that are not proven to exist?

But then I read something that made me change my approach. Unfortunately I can’t remember the author but her categorization of new ideas was this:

1. I’m not interested in this subject.
2. It might be true.
3. I believe this.

That was such a relief to me!

I had accepted that people believe in the big religions, even if many of the thoughts there too seemed crazy and too old fashioned for me to listen to. It had been harder with the more strange things like UFO, aliens, parallel universe, law of attraction, reincarnation, vibrations, messages from other entities etc. I couldn’t really pay much attention to them, because I didn’t want to be one of these people who believe in every new age thought, thinking it’s a truth just because many enough people say so, even if there are no scientific proofs at all. This new categorization though made me start listening more relaxed to their thoughts. I could think “It might be true” and I didn’t have to decide if I believed in it or not. Sometimes I heard about absolutely crazy things, and then I could just think “I’m not interested in that” – I didn’t have to state that I thought it was wrong.

I have always relied hard on scientific proof. But to be honest, I know, as we all do, that the scientists only see what they are looking for and can only measure things they have instruments for. We can laugh at people some hundred years ago who didn’t understand things we understand today, just because now science has been able to prove it.

This more relaxed approach to new ideas has also allowed me to read new books about all kind of strange thoughts, listen to interesting, engaged people on YouTube and provoke my friends at dinner parties. And funnily enough, I every now and then read about scientific discoveries, especially within the quantum physics, that prove some of the more strange ideas!

At the same time I think it has changed my world view. Things aren’t black or white. There are so many things we still have not discovered and some things that are true today will most probably be proven false in some years. And I don’t have to react to someone’s belief – I can just enjoy expanding my world of possibilities!